Our dreams. ->
Sunday, April 15, 2012 @ 12:47 AM
hey! i know it's late now! but it's better to blog now than next week. exams are around the corner. (: so it olevels. i can't believe it's so fast. i am sick again. with blocked nose and all~ ohshit. i know. (: hahaha.
i haven been feeling good lately. dramas and books are my source of distraction from the world. they make you so ... secure. yes, secure. you just find that everything around you is blocked out. everything around you does not exist at that time. it makes you feel you belonged. it makes you feel that they don't hate you for being yourself. it makes you feel accepted. i don't know why, but they never fail to give me those feelings. :D i love them.
anyway, it's late now. time to take medicine and off to bed! at this rate i am going, i doubt i will get well any sooner. ^^ toodles!
Get out, get out, get out, of my head.
something new~ ->
Saturday, April 14, 2012 @ 3:42 PM
If you are late one step, you chance might slip away. Chances are like thieves. You don't know when they will come. And you don't realise how much you have lost until after they are gone.
Sometimes, just rant. It makes you feel way better. ->
Friday, April 13, 2012 @ 9:43 PM
hey. i was having a really bad weekend last week. sorry about the rants. (: but i am more or less alright now if you ask. i have been spending every single day walking home thinking about things. lets just say i clear my thoughts, not all, but most. i don't know why, but i still find myself as confused as ever.
school had been alright. being able to sit at my own seat is awesome. really. those two never fail to keep me awake. when i am tired, they are damm hyper. when i am hyper, they are damm tired. ._. i could never understand them. but it's awesome sitting beside them! hahahah. wanna try? no! i won't let ya try! :D
i am alright, but i never say that things are getting better. ^^ they are definitely not. because i just love it the way it is. (:
Seriously, just stop trying so hard. It just makes you like a fool because i can see right through it.
Disappointed~ ->
Friday, April 6, 2012 @ 10:13 PM
day two and i am still in a bad mood. i just need to rant out alright. my attitude really sucks these few days and that's why i avoid talking much. and yeah. i need a listening ear. stop judging me if you aren't willing to listen. i will keep talking and talking and only hope for you to listen, not comment. if you are a friend that cared, you would have accept me for who i am. don't tell me, "what makes you think i didn't?" because your actions simply prove it.
don't help just because you need to, help because you want to. you aren't even putting your 100percent to helping. as a good friend, i am never important to you. the others are, but me. i am so disappointed in you. because this isn't the first time. and don't expect me to forgive. because it shows clearly you freaking don't give a damm, why should i?
you can scold me for being unreasonable, but think. have you ever be reasonable towards me. i am not the only one that say you didn't.
I appreciate you for your help. but it isn't from the bottom of your heart.
sometimes, life sucks. ->
Thursday, April 5, 2012 @ 5:07 PM
i am currently in a very bad mood ya. just bear with me for a while. because i am in a
fcuking bad mood. i know i sound very unreasonable, but ya, i am still in a bad mood. you can't expect me to be reasonable when i am in a bad mood. because you can't either. see? i told ya i was in a bad mood.
ok seriously.
fml.
you said that you won't want to separate the girls because they will take it quite seriously and need a long time to accept. do i look like a guy? i am a freaking girl and yes, i always have a hard time adjusting to new seating arrangement. have you ever cared for my feelings? shouldn't we be focusing more on studies than trying this out in class? i know you meant well. you do want to help him to stop falling asleep in class. but what about me? who is to help me? have it ever cross your mind? i am your student alright. i do have feelings and secondary 4 isn't an easy year. with so many things to manage, i still have to try to adapt to my seat with no one to help me. why? why of all freaking people its me? and one week is one week. don't tell me at the end of the week that we are going to stick to that freaking arrangement because it's better. i don't take that crap. one week is one week.
ya, you all may find me unreasonable. it's just changing seats what. yeah. changing seats what. that's to you. we all have our own problems and to others, it may not be problems. because we aren't the same. we have different ways of looking at things, solving them and accepting them. and for me, i never like changing seats. try changing seats every time the teachers like when you are in primary school. i thought secondary school will be much better. but no.
i don't know why i am taking it so seriously but i just feel so irritated with so many things to complete and this to add up. seriously, fml. i don't give a damm now because i am fcuking pissed for i don't know what.
I just need a listening ear. nothing else but just a listening ear which doesn't judge me but just listen to me rant. they say they will lend me one. but they didn't. because they will just find me unreasonable.
