life have been pretty much hectic. you wake up in the cold morning and head off to school just to be crushed by the growing amount of homework. we always hoped for life to get better, but sadly, it doesn't work our way. i have been thinking, reminiscing, about the things i have done. knowing it isn't possible to go back to the past, yet i am selfish and wanted things to. life indeed do move on and wait for no one. i feel like i have done many bad things and spent every and many free moments thinking about it and making up for it. and they say 'things happen for a reason'. i don't see any reason in life. disappointed faces is what i fear. i want to make them proud of me, not worried. afraid to make a difference and then regret later on. is this what i always wanted?

I would rather let you go then to make myself hurt for someone who isn't worth my wait and love.